Friday, October 22, 2010
I've felt a little guilty because some of my friends are missing me more than I am missing them. Before I left for college I was really afraid of losing my friends and I thought that I would be texting them 24/7 and we would visit each other on weekends. But things are much different that what I expected. I have met some great people since I have been at Wartburg and I can tell that they will be in my life long after I graduate. Not to say to that my friends from back home are less important, I just feel comfortable here and don't need to rely on past relationships to stay afloat. Before I used to struggle with believing in myself enough to do things on my own. I'd depend on my friends to do things with me and support me. Junior year I started to gain more confidence in myself and could do things on my own. However, I never thought I would be strong enough to go to a college independent of my friends. Lots of kids I know are going to the same school, and even rooming with their friends. In my opinion, coming to Wartburg without any attachments was the best thing I could do. I can be myself now and fend for myself. It was up to me to make new friends and meet new people, I couldn't lean on anyone else or have them help me. I think some of my other friends are struggling to make that bond with other people because they are involved with high school friends have have trouble branching out. I do miss my high school friends, but not as much as I thought I would. I feel like this period in my life has been very focused on myself and the maturing I've been doing, rather than relationships. I'm very proud that I have been able to transition smoothly at Wartburg. All the worrying I did in the months before I came to Wartburg was almost for nothing! That was a lot of wasted energy. I was so worried that not having my closest friends around me would inhibit me from doing things, when actually, I think it is just the opposite. If I were to have followed one of my closest friends I would have prevented myself from being myself by relying on my friends. Overall, I'm finding the balance between all of my friends and, most importantly, myself.
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I'm happy for you in that it seems like you are adapting well to the "social" life here at Wartburg. We are so glad that you are feeling a part of the community!
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